12 days later...

Its been 12 days since I had my last post on 1st February. Following things occured. I did 2 sets of sections in my lab. A couchsurfer arrived from UK and her name is Jude. Its been a good 2 days talking with her.

It snowed like crazy in Jackson. The TV said it has never snowed that much ever here. It was fun driving in the snow this morning. A sort of relaxed Friday. Am so excited about this weekend as we all are going to New Orleans tomorrow for Mardi Gras. I hope it will be fun!

Long day!

Today was a sort of long and busy day for me. Mondays and Fridays are by far my busiest days at UMC. Its 1:00 am and I need to do some studying before I head to my bed. Am slacking on guitar playing, but since I have loads of other stuff to do, I won't blame myself for it right now. Will go one step ahead with organization!

Here's a toast to the young and beautiful night with my coffee. Will finish studying cholinergic synaptic transmission tonight.

Re-awakening!

So it has been exactly 89 days since my last post, and that is a long time. I had decided that if I do not post within every 30 days, I will delete this blog. But I am giving myself this one time relaxation because this year is all about organizing my life and incorporate a healthier and active lifestyle. I am keeping a journal, learning some guitar, studying extra and revitalizing my social life a bit. By the last part, I mean that I am trying to rekindle my old friendships that had been under the dust for a while.
So, here I write again with this hope to keep on writing regularly. Things that happened between October 30 (my last post) and January 28 (my present post):

October 31: I went to New Orleans for halloween party.

November 4: I got a new car.

November 15: Had my birthday party at home.

December: Winter break and loads of fun times (too much to write here....)

January 16: Went up to oxford to meet Galen.

and now its Jan 28, and I think I will head out now to meet my friend Jeremy. Will try writing more often now dear blog!

Hate & hatred!

Hatred works through insecurity and paranoia. It creates a political discourse of self-defensive, pre-emptive, aggressive posturing. Where insecurity and paranoia rule, we invite the dialogue of the deaf, negotiation and consultation by mutual harangues, name-calling, vilification and blame. Hatred generates parallel universes of self-justification and the ethos of the bomb-o-gram. Insecurity and paranoia make the first strike the first resort of choice in a political arena that has all the sophistication of a children's playground ruled by the ethics of the bully. Where in such a world is there any hope of transcendence? The culture of violence, the political rhetoric of the bomb-o-gram, has to be opposed everywhere. But it will be opposed only when there is genuine commitment to alternative means of communication. Political arenas and institutions have to become effective and responsive in offering negotiation, accommodation and the capacity to act.

(Ziauddin Sardar & Merryl Wyn Davies)

self...

Selflessness should ensoul the purpose of every action in one's life. Listen like a cherokee, watch like a falcon, think like hawking, but most of all... act like the sublimation of a worthy God.

No human is good enough to be kneeled to, but no human is bad enough either to be crucified. A world where superficial thought guides actions and, an eyes vision cannot see through the shadow of a pety action, there is an intense need for general forgiveness and acceptance.

The point where hatred is touching 98 degree centigrade, and thinking is suffocated to tiny cocoons of self-reverence, humanity needs to redefine its relative morality to something bigger than self...

Its interesting that the word self can bloom into Sympathy Emancipation Love & Freedom

or...

it can rot in to Selfdom Egotism Lust & Fallacy ...

I hope that someday people will pride not in their God, not in their Country, not in their possessions, but in collective good of humanity. When not a single more human will die of hunger and starvation.

desperation...

Reading Bakunin's essay on borders and nation states and listening to Muse's soldier's poem at the same time has a combo exponential affect. Just realizing how much injustice there is in the world and how nation states are ripping off their populations just in the name of patriotism. They are acting as nothing more than huge corporations that also have the military power to destroy the monopoly of other corporations. There is so much I wish to write, and so many examples that I have but I really do not know how and where to begin.
But I think I will be writing more on this in real detail soon.

watching the empty highway..

So here I am, back to blogging after a long break. I think I am writing my first or second blog since I came to America. Starting and job and getting paid does have its advantages and it is sort of fun but it does not take long for a man to already start planning ahead. There is this feeling of doing more, learning more and to feel like having accomplished some long forgotten mission.
Well, am just at the beginning! I realized today that there is so much I want to do. My ambitions are somewhat fuzzy but not invisible. Its like both seeing and not seeing what I want to see. This much is though clear to me. I won't look far behind the dome. I just want to take a little step at a time and enjoy this beautiful world. This beautiful life that I LOVE!! Its simply beautiful, simple and amazing.

And I think I have stopped running after happiness. And the day since I stopped chasing smiles, they are chasing me. Everyday provides me more fulfillment and relaxation. Although when I look behind me, it seems that I have come a long way, just the way I was looking behind on I-20 west heading to Jackson. And the road ahead is only making me happier. I felt a peace with my bicycle on my side on that road. It was like a complete comfort that no matter how far my home is, I will make it to my place before the night falls. And I did in fact!!

Thats how I am at peace with love. I have sehar on my side. I am fulfilled. I don't ask for anything more in my life...